Since finishing Robbing HUD I’ve been trying to pause for a bit while also finishing off a few things I’ve been putting off for a while. In doing so I’ve been thinking a lot about my commitments and how I’ll try and balance things going forward.
At present I’m currently:
- Working 24 hours a week (with another 3-5 hours travel depending on mode of transport)
- Learning Italian (an hour a day typically)
- Various writing responsibilities (time varies)
- Gym (around 3 hours a week)
Then of course there’s sleeping, socialising and that kind of stuff.
So between all those I’m trying to progress what I wish to turn into a career. There’s a lot I want to do and I often find myself alternating between feeling like I don’t have any time to do it and cursing myself for ever giving myself a break. Quite often at the end of the day I’ll feel “I could have done more today”.
It’s a tricky one to balance; the drive to progress and the need to look after yourself. Maybe it will become easier with time, or maybe I’ll become more successful and can leave work behind (one can hope!) I’m trying to think what I can cut, other than sleep which is kind of needed. I might swap the gym out or cut down on my Italian. I’ve had quite a progressive pace in the six weeks since I started it, but I don’t know how sustainable that is going to be.
I’ve always been one that wants to skip to the good part. That’s not to say that I don’t put in the hard work, I just grouse as I do!